Worried...

Recently She's under a lot of work stress. and I mean A LOT! She's also having trouble sleeping at night. Any slight movement from me might wake her up and cause her to lose her sleep. I'm really worried about her. The recent escape to Pangkor Island wasn't enough for us because basically.. Pangkor is way under-developed and under-maintained. In addition it was sort of a treasure hunt trip organized by our company therefore there isn't much rest on the way there either. Will have to take her on another nice getaway to refresh her.

Life sucks

I am the type of person who like freedom and flexibility, do whatever I like whenever I like. But I need to work to earn for a living. After my diploma, my working style was finished work at 5pm, had the computer switched off and headed home. I used to bring home some paper works (when being struck by the feeling of guilty) but never attempted to stress myself.

But due to a momentary lapse of concentration when looking for new employment after my bachelor courses, I accepted a job that forced me to take work home, agree to work late and worry about the business, which I am not happy with at all. Undeniable the benefits offered are good and I met my potential life partner here. Nevertheless, I have been very cranky till I can’t bear the crankiness myself. The culture here is “never ever think of taking up any responsibilities yourself” and boss likes people who presented themselves well (which means they can think far and knowledgeable, but I doubt so). Teamwork is always being emphasized and this created opportunity for those buggers to take advantage on this. People around are so fake. I guess this make them strong enough to survive. I do not have sense of belonging here. I do not have the motivation to go to work and while I reach the office, I already feel like going home. Life is even “greater” when performance period set up is around the corner. You will suddenly find yourself love working so much and other activities are seems like a waste of time. I refer this period as “physical+mental torturing period”. Mom won’t know WTF is performance period set up and she won’t understand why her daughter needs to work even during weekends.

I had a very bad day and my mood was like shit. I hate this kind of feeling. It makes me feel so stupid that I was pissed off by those stupid fellows. Even my loved one does not know how to deal with me while I am in this kind of mood. Life becomes extremely sad. At this moment, I am lost and helpless…

Valentine's

It's been 2 months since I last posted something up. My apologies, especially to Her...

The both of us have our ups and downs in our relationship. But we still love each other a lot. When Valentine's Day came by, we decided to share and buy a present for the both of us. It was also to prepare for our trip to Phuket/Phi Phi that was coming up in 2 weeks time. After much consideration, we finally bought the gift itself. Behold! The Sony CyberShot DSC-W80!

Front of the camera...

Back of the camera...

Note: Photos taken using an N73... Unless the camera can take a photo of itself...

This.. is our first "child" :P We have been taking care of it together and putting it to good use a lot. In the future when you see images in this blog, they are most likely taken by this baby. It will be the first fruit of our relationship yet not the last. I hope to see more accomplishments between us in the near future. Although it's very late.. Happy Valentine's Day Dear!

Election Day

3rd March 2008 was Malaysia's 12th Election Day. This was my first time being a voter and I felt a bit excited. Woke early and followed mom to our voting place in order to avoid crowds.We reached there around 8.30am, quite a lot of people there already. Mom and I were distributed into different rooms, mom room#2 and me room#4. Need to queued outside the room for a while and I met one of my secondary classmates there. I think the whole process just took around 5 minutes.
I have to say the results were a bit shocking though, not that I stand firm for certain parties. My political viewpoint = no comments.

CNY

Time passes by very quickly. It will be the end of 4th day of cny in 15 minutes, which means need to start work tomorrow. Argh…
I feel happy and contented for this cny. We went to each other place for lunch and dinner during cny eve and 1st day of cny. My angpow income increased if compared with previous years. Thanks to his relatives :p This has marked a good beginning of wealthy year for me ahead. Hahaha…
Then he accompanied me to visit my god-parents during 2nd day of cny and we went to Kek Lok Si – place where I have not been to for many years during cny.
Where have we been on 3rd day? Oh… we went to kfc for dinner. Yes, after having the same dishes for two days, we have a strong craving for kfc.
4th day of cny which is today, I accompanied my bro to bring his doggie, Brownie to the vet. I actually hate to go that place where I used to lose my loved one.
It will be another 11 days to mark a full stop for cny. And I am now looking forward to our Phuket + Phi Phi trip… Lovey dovey V-day coming soon and another long holidays coming soon :)

Chinese New Year Eve

Tomorrow is the first day of Chinese New Year (CNY). That makes today Chinese New Year Eve!!! :P

It has been a tradition that the chinese have family reunion lunch/dinner on Chinese New Year Eve. We are not left out. Today she came to my grandma's place for lunch and I went to her place for dinner. Surprisingly the dishes that we had are quite similar.

I enjoy CNY because it is the festival where I get a lot of Ang Pows and I get to eat my favorite dishes. I ate so much that I am so full now. Plus the fact that I get to celebrate with her this year makes this year's CNY much much more special.

I am so glad I have her by my side.

2K7 Flashbacks

This happened in March. I have made one of the most important decisions in my life. I have chosen him as my potential life partner. He is a very caring, understanding and supportive partner. And I am glad that I have him. Of course he also has weaknesses. I love him so I will accept both his strengths and weaknesses. This is taught by him as he always said nobody is perfect. We are 10-months old now and looking forward to our first anniversary very soon :)

I have finally got my tiny dream come true. I went to Bali for my birthday celebration. This was my first oversea trip and my first time travelling with him. And, I had my first flight experience as well. Bali is a very nice place and the area is too large to be fully explored. It was so wonderful after all. I hope I can earn more and get to go on more trips.

Life is like a roller coaster. I lost my dearest cat (Ming Ming) right after the Bali trip. Ming was with me since Nov 2K5. He was not a friendly cat since it was young. Nevertheless, Ming was the best companion. He has been by my side through high and low. But when I started to work in this company, I have got no enough time for him. I was not even aware that he fell sick till his condition went worst. It was still a pain for me. I miss him…

Another thing happened after the trip. I have changed my job role. This is considered career advancement for me. I got converted to exempt staff. No pain no gain. I have a tough time in this current role. Everything was already half way through when I took over. And, the toughest time was during performance period set up. I became very grumpy and emotional due to the work pressure. My life span reduced by one year after this set up. But I am lucky that I have him by my side.

I have another minor achievement. I have always wanted to learn new languages since long long ago, but it was not being put into actions. Finally, I have taken and passed my Level I Japanese Language Course.

I hope that I can have more happy moments and achievements in 2K8. がんばります